This has been my face for the past couple of months. Yup. I haven’t updated my blog in a long while. So much bull shit has happened. I am riding solo again. I just finished applying to my first art school. I lost weight. My portfolio has been my main concern. And yup. That’s it. I feel drained. Man, life needs to take a chill pill sometimes, but in the end of the day, I always manage to come back to tumblr…one way or another.
/endobligatorypersonalupdate
Twitter bitch
I made an account because my friends wanted to tag me whenever I hang out with them or some shit. I don’t know. My life is not that important for me to say anything or tweet about. If you are interested here is the link: https://twitter.com/#!/columnnotes
Go crazy.
Good ol’ Friday. I don’t know, I feel kind of weird going to church today with my parents…
Last time I was in church, I was doing my communion and I detested it. I hated skipping out on my Saturday morning cartoons, I hated waking up earlier than usual to get dressed, I hated sitting there for two hours doing nothing and I couldn’t even play on my gameboy advanced, the kids were rotten and mean, and it was overall not fun.
Anyways, despite the fact that I am baptized as a Christian (to be specific, a Catholic) and my family (my mother) is a believer in Christ and God, I am the only one in my family that just doesn’t give a shit about religion. Yes, there is a name for that and it is called Apatheism. But why am I going to church you ask? My mum. When I was a lot younger, we used to go to church every Sunday, but after she got her new job, I am assuming she didn’t really care to go to church or she was too busy working in the weekends. It has been a rough couple of years, being that my brother joined the military and other family issues spurring up, so I guess going to church is like supporting my mum in a sense. It is implied that my mom knows about my apathy towards religion, but it would mean a lot to her if I go with her today. I am kind of nervous because I literally forgot all of the prayers (which are in Spanish) and I don’t know if what I am wearing just blatantly says “I AM THE ANTI CHRIST, I AM A SLUT, AND I FUCK BITCHES FOR MONEY.” But any who, it’s going to be a weird evening…and I hope it doesn’t take up my whole night. I should bring my DS.
On another note, that dress I am wearing is a Juicy Couture my mum found at a thrift store. How awesome is that?
Shieet, I’m a gold digger~
Dude I should charge people for helping them out with their math problems.
I’d be making soo much money right now. Just a thought.
So I finised signing my death contract
It was nice knowing you tumblr and the quiet followers who never speak to me. I have enjoyed this semester’s light work, for now I must embrace the life of an engineer. Fuck man, I have so much shit to do lol. I feel like saying fuck environmental engineering, but I haven’t even started taking any courses yet. I have to take so many placement tests just to catch up one semester. What a pain.
/endrant
Prom is today
I am pretty excited to wear my dress, oh yeah, and eat food.
Yep, $75 dollars for one night, cute.
Fuck school
Everyday is such a drag, and I feel so drained. I am not going to miss anything from high school. I feel like it’s such a waste of my life, only to be consumed by the mundane yet strenuous tasks that in the end I ask myself “How is this fucking analytical paper on a overrated poem is contributing to my short life span? How is this ‘trapezoidal rule’ problem contributing to my short life span other than killing my brain cells?” God, I am so sick of it. I don’t even know if I can lasts another decade of this bullshit, so I am certified to gloat about what? “Yeah, I paid so much money for this piece of shit paper that shows I accomplished something that won’t mean anything to the maggots that feeds off of my body in my grave.” Maybe I am suffering from teenage angst, maybe I am naive, but fuck, I sure hope college life would be worthwhile, after all, it’s only 2/5ths of my life doing the same shit in school over and over again.
Whatever, let me just say that my issues are not bad, there are far more worse situations that people go through. My burden is a mere mosquito bite compared to what others have to deal with.
But still, fuck school….hard.
/endrant
It’s sad to see someone you truly cared for fall down at such heights. Who knows, maybe they perceive it as an upgrade, a positive change. Who knows, maybe that’s who they truly are, and has been repressing it for so long. Who knows, they are possibly trying to find themselves. After all, it’s frustrating and quite intolerable, but again, who am I to say anything? I am just another voice.
On another note, I have realized that I am not the easiest individual to get along with. I clash with people too many times, and sometimes I just feel like I won’t feel at peace if I go against whatever anybody says. It’s almost as if I enjoy arguing for no reason. In the end, I am just another dumb bitch.
Now I end my rant.
/endrant
Happy Holidays
To my friends and followers :}
Hope you guys have a great day. Oh, enjoy your meals with a side dish of clogged arteries and Santa climbing in your windows and snatching your presents up <3
